Sunday, March 04, 2007
hmm okay i've decided to blog. whew finally i'm almost done doing my chem speech. sigh. it sucks having to do most of it ALONE. but ohwells. at least it's ALMOST completed. but i bet there'll be changes that have to be made again. sigh. havent studied for physics but whatever. shall study like on wed or something. must go practise violin again after this. my poor neighbours really. all sorta instrument sounds at anytime of the day. sorry neighbours! heh. anyway okay i'm so dreading tmr. firstly, its ONLY half day. secondly, there's definitely sl, i mean come on, they wont postpone it to tues will they. thirdly, there's string practise. har har so funny. its meant to be a half day man. sigh. and i'm so tired. sat had to wake up damn early just to get to sch by 7. its madness. in the end i ended up walking around ushering. but there were so little pple to usher. oh we even had to mop the canteen floors at 8 plus in the morn. mygoodness. i think i did it half asleep.

anyway okay its really sad to know that sometimes you cant rely on ur friends cuz most of them wont be there all the time. but its even sadder when u think that person'll be there for u but he/she ends up being so caught up in her own world. but okay nvm.. this aside, heres a big thankyou to my sis for being there for me on sat. [i'm stupid, i know] but thanks sis! haha.

sigh sch's starting to feel like a drag. i wish i could stay home all day and do watever i want. i really envy those who've just gotten back their As results. i mean they're almost like reaching the end of their education period. no more stress and all that. so cool. sigh. 3 more yrs! or rather, less than 3. although it's quite scary, but i cant wait.

hmm. this months march.. next months april. my birthday. but somehow i dont really look forward to it. its like supposed to be my sweet 16th this year and i've always thought maybe i'll get a wonderful birthday celebration when i turn 16. i mean, usually sweet 16th's quite a big thing then have party with everyone in pretty dresses and all. but seems like i'm not gonna get that sorta party this year. sigh. yes i'm disappointed but ohwells.


LOVEE((: Sunday, March 04, 2007

overwhelmed.
40 kinds of sadness maybe?

Nobody told me we'd only get one chance
I didn't know that our tide would turn so fast
Why we have to say goodbye I don't understand

There you go, there you go,
now you're gone, now you're gone,
to somewhere i cant take you back.

There you go, there you go,
now you're gone, now you're gone,
to somewhere, you're not coming back/


LOVEE((: Sunday, March 04, 2007

Thursday, March 01, 2007
okay hi i'm back! haha. yes and finally i'm updating. well its been really... crazy the past few weeks and all. i'm practically camping over at school. staying there until so late every night. its madness.

heres a hi to everyone who've visited although i havent been updating. heh heh i'm so sorry. and rachel, yes i like them too. haha i just saw chicken being massaged just now. ha. tell me how cools that.

hmm sigh i'm feeling quite - over something. maybe i'm being paraniod but somehow, just somehow, i feel that you did it on purpose. u missed my call on purpose. sigh i dont know. maybe it isnt true but i'll never know will i. if u can do that to other people, i cant see why u wont do it for another time.. i dont know. sigh.

i'm getting a little touchy these days maybe. maybe cuz of the work overload. ohwells. and i cant stop thinking thinking thinking. sigh and im apprehensive about tomorrow. i hope it wont be a screwed day. first i have individual with conductor.. i might even -. then i have ct til real late. sigh. no dinner at home again. somehow, i miss being at home or rather, being with my family. suddenly at the end of last year i figured they mean so much to me and that i havent been spending enough time with them. maybe its time to really spend much more time with them. i figured they were the only ones other than god who'll always be there for me, and they're the ones who REALLY CARE for me. and i mean really care. i really thank god for them, although they can get so irritating at times. but still, i love them anyway.

sigh. i wish i may i wish i might, i hope i'll get to take a break soon(: haha. from school work. i have so much things to complete. and i hope i'll get to go to Italy! mygosh. i really really really wanna go there this june! and i hope this dec i'll be able to spend time in New Zealand with both string and my family. hope theres a domestic flight or something. ohwells. hookay i shall stop here. another time(:

call it sixth sense watever, sitting at the wooden tables, i knew you will come today. i just knew it. somehow.


LOVEE((: Thursday, March 01, 2007